Vivacious Rachy

I just signed away my soul..

I tendered my resignation last weekend and just 30 mins ago, I signed with the new Place of Employment. To make it seem even more real (lest I think it’s merely all a dream), they called me back 15 mins ago. Just to check that yes, this really is the right number, and to ask what I’d like as my email address as they’re setting it up for me already. o_O

I feel like I’ve cheated on my boss.

I think he’s a bit upset with me. Maybe upset is an understatement. He’s been sulking a little bit and is less friendly with me than he usually is. hehe My regrets are leaving him and some of the people I work with, as well as not being able to be a part of BRIDEX this year. =(

I’m nervous. I’m anxious. I’m excited. I wonder if I’ve made the right decision. But I’m taking deep breaths. And now I’m sitting in the other office with chocolate mud cake, a cup of strong coffee and my Coffee Buddy is on his way to tell me that everything will be fine and life is good. I’ll be okay.

Next step, here I come.. =)

I had coffee for lunch today.. don’t look at me like that, I had breakfast at 10-11am and was still full. So anyway, I met up with the Duchess and I told her that there’s this song that makes me think of her. We were talking about guys and the kind of personality and character that would be good for her. And these lyrics are part of the song I was speaking about…

“Confidence is a must
Cockiness is a plus
Edginess is a rush
Edges I like ‘em rough
A man with a Midas touch

Interesting sense of style
Ten million dollar smile
Think I can handle that
Animal in the sack
His eyes see right to my soul
I surrender self-control
Catch me looking again
Falling right into my plan”

- Radar by Britney Spears

….because my Peaches will be home in exactly 24 days. =D

And she has said I’m not allowed to post at my leisure anymore because it usually means I get lazy and I won’t update news. News becames stale and outdated when I finally do decide to write something. hehe

I’ve had a busy CNY so far. Attended a few open houses, had a couple of my own. Laughed alot, ate too much.. I’d taken 2 days off work so I could properly rest. But by the 2nd day I actually got bored and went back to work. I’m not a workaholic, I just pretend to be. hehe Yes yes, I can see you rolling your eyes. =P If I were, I wouldn’t be blogging while at work ok.

I even found time to bake.. made 60 cupcakes the day before having friends over on the weekend. I didn’t even get enough time to take photos of them and now they’re all gone.. they were a very big hit and I’m very pleased everyone enjoyed them. Including the guy who unintentionally offended me by saying they MUST have been made by another person who has been well-advertised in one well-known blog. =P

Over a week has passed since the first day of CNY, meaning we only have 5 days left. Very short while now it seems. It was fun although this is the first year I haven’t gotten properly psyched about the festive season as I have grown up and started working so I haven’t had much time to really get into the spirit in the weeks leading up to CNY. In case anyone’s wondering, yes I still do receive red packets as i am unmarried. ^_^ hehehe In chinese culture, you keep on receiving them until you get married. Then it’s your turn to fork out. And people wonder why I’m not rushing to settle down yet. lol

Before my boss sees me slacking off (he can see me through the CCTV I have behind my desk), I should go finish off some more work. It’s tough peanuts trying to rearrange my filing so other people know how to read it. My current files aren’t messy, but only I know where everything is. I’m now attempting to arrange everything for a smoother handover.

One last thing.. Good luck Peaches for your exams! I’ll speak to u soon! xx

This one is long overdue. I’m writing for the benefit of Peaches who’s complained that she has nothing to read. =P hehe You knows I loves you.

With the recent heavy rains and crazy floods, daily routine has been disrupted. Roads are closed (took me an hour to get to work), schools are closed, phone lines and power are out. I’m forced to do my work at CZone, now my “other office” as one of my closest friends likes to say. Power at the office has gone off, come on, then gone off again. Servers are down and the wireless doesn’t work. We get sent home after lunch.. which is nice, but then work goes unfinished. Leading to me having to park in an internet-available coffee space.

I’ve had to spend the past week making a very difficult decision. But I have made it. I just hope it’s not one I will regret. I  know it’s the right move.. but you know how it is, head tells you you’re being smart about it but the heart is heavy and pulling you the other way. Nevertheless, I’ve decided and I know it’s the right thing to do. Don’t anyone panic now.. it’s nothing hugely life-changing. Just taking a different direction and changing it up a little. I shall reveal more once I’ve made the move. =)

So what else have I been preoccupied with? WEDDINGS! =D Got wedding plans on the brain.. not my own though. But once it’s finally my turn, I know I’ll be fully prepared and I know I’ll have the best-trained (by yours truly, of course) entourage ever! hehe

Just thinking about it gets me very excited. I can’t wait till my Peaches comes home next month!

It’s been such a whirlwind of events, I’ve only just recovered! It’s been a while since I wrote my last post. And since then, I’ve been busy with Phantom and Lioness’ wedding, caught up on my rest, finished off my work before my leave started… and tomorrow I’m going on holiday!

The wedding was spectacular and I enjoyed every minute of it. Yes, including all the busy and running around. I was so happy being in my natural habitat. You should’ve seen me! Even with hands full, I’m so glad for the people around me who kept reminding me to breathe, and to keep smiling.

The dresses, the shoes, the makeup, the hair, the jewelry (oh my, I swear I swooned everytime I touched those glittery gems!), and of course the people… everything and everyone was gorgeous.

Congratulations again to the Bride and Groom, who finally got married after 11 years together.. I’m not the only one who’s breathing “Finally!”. I suppose that was the reason why this was such an amazing affair. Although long and tiring, we all had fun and I think that’s what counts for the most. It was much anticipated and very satisfying to see it all come together. But now that it’s over, it’s a bit quiet, I’m sorry to say. I love the hustle bustle of it all but after months of planning, there was such an anti-climax to see it all end.

I’m grateful for my SG entourage who were there every step of the way. Who let me boss them around just a little, and helped me with everything big or small. And I tip my hat to the Grand Vizier, Phoenix who we would be lost without. He took charge of the hantaran, and the little touches to the wedding regalia (fans, flowergirls’ hair wreaths and flower baskets) which he sewed and did by hand himself! Also my SG2 who assisted me with everything.. only she can put up with me and I’d have chosen no other to be by my side.

After a whole week’s of events, we finally settled down the night of the last function to just hang out at the Bride’s house.. smoking shisha and cigars, taking lots of photos, watching the wedding slideshows, and of course just enjoying the company of one another. It was a fitting end to wedding week and I felt like I never wanted to leave. Heck, I only got home at 4am. haha

I’m just a little disappointed it’s all over, but not too much so. Because, 1) there’s one more reception in KL next year (YAYE!) and 2) there’s another wedding to plan! =D This will be very special as this one has been planned for the last 2 years. I was a witness at her ROM in 2006, and I shall be one of her bridesmaids this coming year. I can’t wait!! =)

This is the month of celebrations.. and I must wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year before I forget.  I spent Christmas Eve over a few drinks with friends.. although we were actually celebrating a birthday rather than Christmas itself. And then I had quite a little adventure on Christmas night with different friends.

After hanging out over some flavoured smoke, the guys had to help lift Phoenix’s lancer out of a manhole. That sounds wrong on SO many levels. Lol. But ’tis true. I have no idea why this particular manhole had no cover and Phoenix had driven his front tyre right into it. So our big, strong men helped lift the car while Phoenix reversed his car out. Apparently this has happened a number of times to different people so I don’t see why the problem hasn’t been fixed. I mean, the whole of me could just drop down there and I wouldn’t even touch the walls.

I’ve just finished packing and I’m finally off on holiday tomorrow. =) A much-needed break which I hope will recharge and rejuvenate me enough to face the year ahead. I hope everyone has a good new year’s, whether you’re celebrating it with loved ones, or are planning to spend it alone (I hope not). See you all in 2009. =)

I don’t deal well with stress. My mind threatens to switch off and not do anything until it’s satisfied it’s rested and can deal with the world again. Kind of a mandatory shutdown, you could say.

This has been a very trying week. Phantom and Lioness’ wedding is literally round the corner (Monday to be exact), we’ve been rushing to try and finish off the hantaran stuff, work is mad, thesis work is pending.. and if that wasn’t enough, I’m pmsing badly at the same time. Some months I can just ride over the bumps and it all passes. Some days, like these, I’m rearing for a fight. And sometimes, I go looking for one and I find it. I feel sorry for the poor souls who have to cross my path.

It’s been a rough week. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing, what my purpose is. It sucks to feel this way. Even something small can pull me down and threaten to overwhelm me. I pray for this mood to lift. No, this mood HAS to lift soon.. we have a wedding to throw! =]

And I, the Gatekeeper, have to keep a calm but firm front in the face of all intruders who threaten to infiltrate the Bride’s bedchambers before The Time.

I swear, all this crap going on with me is making me loopy.

Speaking of which.. reminder to self: Remember to call WC on Sunday to remind him of the wedding. Remember to text his fiancee so she can help me bug him about it. Also, must discuss timing and coordinate the group.

I’ve been chanting “TGIF TGIF TGIF” to myself all day. One of my colleagues started it and a couple of us followed suit. It actually works. But it is kind of depressing that that’s the only thing that makes me even remotely happy right now..

And I’m not the one getting married! heheh

Wedding prep for Phantom and Lioness are heavily underway. I’ve been delegated the tasks of drawing up the guestlist for my side (texting Lion every hour to provide full names), distributing invites once I get them.. then there’s the helping Phoenix and Dragon with decorating the dulang for Phantom’s hantaran. 27 dulangs! We’re wayyyy behind on our work. lol

And last night I got a call from Lioness. Apparently her aunts had all taken a vote. My name came up unanimously for the job of ‘Gatekeeper’. Basically I’m the one who’s allowed in and out of her room (together with Hippo) anytime, as well as keeping everyone else out. The aunts don’t want anyone else distracting the Bride while she’s being made up.

I was quite shocked when I was told by Lioness. My first thought was actually ‘SH*T’! hahaha I’m pleased in a way that they thought of me, then my next thought was… how the heck do they remember me, much less my name?? What did I do during the engagement and Kaka’s wedding?? Why ME?! Lol. It’s a bit scary that they have such high expectations of me.

Oh, that’s not all. Apart from being Gatekeeper, they want me to be the one who holds the key to the bridal room. I get nervous thinking about that huge responsibility because I know I’ll be busy doing a lot of running around. What’ll happen if I misplace the key?! (Nauzubillah..) But on a happier note, they’ll probably give me a walkie talkie. Wahey!

So tonight, we’ll be meeting up at the Phantom’s to continue the hantaran stuff. I love looking at all the pretty things.. sigh. I’d get married if only for the presents! haha So much to do, how very little time.

And me, with my thesis to complete in less than 3 weeks. Poo banar.

When he stopped calling me everyday and always had some excuse or another to not be able to meet with me (however legit the reason), I understood perfectly. But I had a feeling. I knew.

When he kept coming to me with little problems, I still did my best and helped him fix things. Even though he didn’t know it then, I saw it. And I pressed, but he never would admit it. Still, I had a feeling. I knew.

When he first called me after ages of not, and said he was reassessing his life at the moment and asked me how mine was going, I had a feeling. I knew.

When he called me the next day asking about plans we had made and told me I was very important to him and he had news to share that’d make me so happy for him, I had a feeling. I knew.

Then he told us. No matter how much I’d prepared myself for it, it still came as a shock. I wanted to be happy but I’m devastated at the same time because now I know he really doesn’t need me anymore. I’m very disappointed to say that I didn’t give him the reaction he wanted from me. I’m upset with myself and he deserves more than that from me.

In truth, I am so happy for him. Nothing gets to me more than seeing that cheeky smile light up his whole face. I am excited for the upcoming year. I just need a little bit of time. And I must speak to him soon.

He’s grown up from the Little Boy Lost who followed me home from London when I left for good. But underneath it all, he’s not changed that much and he’s still MY Little Boy Lost.

I’m going to enjoy this weekend for all its worth! Handed in my thesis draft this morning and booked myself a massage straight away. After the hellish week I had, it was absolute bliss. Doesn’t take away the urge for some serious retail therapy though.

Since there isn’t much to buy in the shops (nothing that I’m looking for anyway), I’ve resorted to shopping online. Oh-so-convenient but oh-so-dangerous at the same time because I tend to spend faster than I can keep track. Well, what else am I supposed to do? The OH is still away and I haven’t heard from him for 6 days. Everyone’s got their own thing going on. I have to keep myself occupied somehow. But it’s ok, because the weekend is here!

Movie and popcorn night, and then Hooch and AM’s bersanding tomorrow. Might bake after that, we’ll see how I feel. Oh oh oh, I haven’t mentioned that I bought cupcake stands from Perth.. not one, but two! Both different sizes. I’m very very excited and I can’t wait to use them! =D

Yaye, InsaneHaven is back up! Thanks Marsie!

First, I’d like to say Congratulations to Hooch and her fiance who’re having their Nikah later today. =) I won’t be attending but I will certainly see you guys at the Bersanding on Sunday!

So the whole time we’ve been unable to update our blogs, what have I been up to? I went to Perth for my brother’s graduation and helped out at my cousin’s wedding. On top of that it seems work has decided to jump on me, both in the office and thesis-wise.

But it’s ok. This will pass. I keep telling myself that.

I was unable to attend Lion’s hen night in Singapore last week. But they’ve said they’re willing to share pictures and stories with me. Provided I sign the Oath first. Something about not disclosing any information regarding said hen night to the guys. So anyway while the girls were on their way home from Singapore, DC, Hills and I met up. Only when it got a bit quiet and DC pointed out that all 3 of us were without our significant others did it make sense why we felt so ‘free and easy’. Not in the best way.. we were all jobless and had not much idea what to do. heheh

I can’t wait for my turn to go on holiday with the girls. Actually any holiday with the girls at this point sounds good..

Ok, so very few people, apart from those nearest and dearest to me, know that I absolutely love Betty Boop. Most people can’t even tell that the ‘boop-be-doop-be-doop-be-doop-boop-boop-be-doop-ah!’ as my phone’s text alert tone is Miss Boop’s trademark boop-boop-be-doop. *shakes head* I even have shoes I’ve dubbed ‘betty boop shoes’ cos they’re gorgeously bright red! So imagine my excitement when I read in the news that there’s going to be a Betty Boop musical! Unfortunately, we won’t get that in this part of the world obviously.. 

Anyway, forgive me.. I have many thoughts in my head. Let me clear some of it up and I’ll be back later.